another round of hard times

Oh, hello :) Things has not been going on smoothly. Everything seems to be falling apart, so screwed up : I'd told myself, I love it when hard times or so called problems occurs. Yes, call me a psycho freak or whatsoever but I love the thrill of going through all of it and knowing the fact that I'm hardcore enough to make it over. Observing how fast 2008 passed in a short blink, and how I lived last year as an insolent, attention-seeker kind of person, I wanna live my life to the fullest for this year, for instance, maybe I could arm wrestle with a tiger or maybe jump into the ocean from a high cliff? Ohkayy, kidding, somehow and somewhat, those are possibly impossible. I try not to take things for granted like how I always used to. I tried my best to appreciate all those memories, swallowing up every second like it was my last one but everything, everyone seems to just go before I could even widen up my eyes. How I dearly wish, I could release all those memories and make them come back to me and how, I could repeat them again and again :) But yes, back in the reality world, I could only repeat them in my head. Memories stays as the way it is, its never ever gonna come back. And its hurtful. Very. Oh and, I keep a low profile, if you know what I mean ;)

I miss them.
I miss you.

xo's; ♥