another round of hard times

Oh, hello :) Things has not been going on smoothly. Everything seems to be falling apart, so screwed up : I'd told myself, I love it when hard times or so called problems occurs. Yes, call me a psycho freak or whatsoever but I love the thrill of going through all of it and knowing the fact that I'm hardcore enough to make it over. Observing how fast 2008 passed in a short blink, and how I lived last year as an insolent, attention-seeker kind of person, I wanna live my life to the fullest for this year, for instance, maybe I could arm wrestle with a tiger or maybe jump into the ocean from a high cliff? Ohkayy, kidding, somehow and somewhat, those are possibly impossible. I try not to take things for granted like how I always used to. I tried my best to appreciate all those memories, swallowing up every second like it was my last one but everything, everyone seems to just go before I could even widen up my eyes. How I dearly wish, I could release all those memories and make them come back to me and how, I could repeat them again and again :) But yes, back in the reality world, I could only repeat them in my head. Memories stays as the way it is, its never ever gonna come back. And its hurtful. Very. Oh and, I keep a low profile, if you know what I mean ;)

I miss them.
I miss you.

xo's; ♥

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Wow, its been a week since dad's birthday and today, I have to make another birthday wish again :)

TO THE MOST ANNOYING SISTER EVER LIVED;
HAPPY 10TH BIRTHDAY ;)

Kayy, kidding. Don't be mad ;P

Alright, now that everyone in my family birthday has passed, I won't be wishing anyone for a moment or so. Well, corrections about the first sentence, everyone in my family except for me, I'm left out till December :(

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Anyhow, we tried show extension during cheer prac, its something I would say extremely fun :D Oh btw, I went back to my old primary school cus it was their Sports Day, hell, the environment is definitely way prettier :) Ahh, wish I was student back there :)

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Hello loves

:)

Life's been getting pretty hectic and exhausting :( Well, not avoiding the fact that it's also pretty dull and boring. *sighs* Finally found some spare time to blog. Lets just move on to my daily crappy rambles.

School; Hmm, more laughing moments are going on but it gives me the shivers when some teachers kept reminding us that exam is coming, like real soon? :|

Cheer; Great. I won't type long, or I can never stop :)

Emotions; I've been feeling like a total freaky person lately. I mean, its like, I'm not triumphant, not gloomy or sad, either. I don't have anything in my mind, no one I'm thinking of, no things I'm worried about. And its becoming quite blatant as well but not very parsimonious, I would say.

Oh my gosh, what is wrong with me? That was very crappy, no? Sorry, not in the mood. Again. I need something or someone to at least brighten up my life or make things seem much more exciting, something I can look forward too. Kayy, I'm making myself stop. Can't stand the crappy-ness.

Oh btw, here's something I think its worth blogging about :)
I MET MY BABY SAYANG SABRINA HO AND JOCELYN, during Easter! Boy, I miss them :) Alright, I'm off.

Losing my grip over you ♥

GET THE MESSAGE, BASTARD?
SURE YOU DO :)
I'M NOT YOUR PRECIOUS PRINCESS ANYMORE :D

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Haha, sorry about that. Anyhow, a birthday is up today! In fact, its a birthday of a very special someone that has done so much for our family :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!

LOVE YOU ALOOTTT!!! :D

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Ohkayys, I skipped cheer prac cus it was a Good Friday, I decided to follow my own insticnts and headed over to CF. Somehow, I regretted. CF seems so much more gloomier without all those lively playful members brightening up the whole atmosphere. Everyone's busy with their own stuffs :| And...what was I about to say? Nevermind, wasn't even bothering to blog. *sighs*

If you would just drop by,
And say a simple greeting,
Perhaps I'd be feeling better now,
Mr Ignorant.

Tenji Japanese Gourmet

I know, its a little too late for me to post this up but I feel like the pictures will be a whole lot of waste if I don't, so here I am, writing a post about my dining experience that happened last month. Anyways, we were back in Solaris during the March holidays and we ate at a beyond awesome Japanese buffet. Oh wells, will let the pictures do the crapping and I highly recommend you guys to give a try over there :D

Sorry if the pictures are unsorted. Too malas.

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So uhh, that was last month. Lets start rambling about today. But oh, just giving you peeps a warning, I'm a cheer freak now. Its like I can't live without talking about it eventho just for a minute. Basically, its my drug now, superbly addicted!! *laughs* Oh wells, eventually, after school, rushed home to have lunch and then dad sent me to Yana's house, we lepaked while waiting for other members to arrive. Lepas tu, when almost all is here, walked to the Jalan Ara playground and oh, I must say, its seriously so damn spacious but loadsa bugs crawling around :| And here goes another day of over dreadly exhausting cheer practice, well, not dreadly cus I'm in love with cheer and it really is fun but definitely tiring. Was practicing stunts the whole time, tho I'm not a base but I can feel my energy drifting away, *sighs* I pity Jelissa and Nasha ;) Before we left, did a lil discussion. Well, Yana does discussion for almost all the cheer prac and that's what I simply adore about the team. Can't recall Cyclonez doing it. Most of my friends really dissaproves me of joining Sparkz, considering being in Cyclonez last year, kinda felt a sense of betrayal entering me but since the members of Cyclonez are mostly newbies, none of them really know me except for Sheryll and yes, I asked her, she was sad that I didn't join her team this year but she supports me in Sparkz and I don't even have to say a word, she knows I'm happier right there. Oh gosh, so friggin sweet! And I'm sorry, honey. Really am.

back to cheer?

Hello darlings ♥

Omg, what was I thinking? My decision is just so unbelievable. Yes, I've decided and tho some of my friends got shocked but what matters most is that I'm superbly happy with what I've choose and it did not let me down. Ohkayys, get to the point, shall we? But first, let me answer my own title, yes, I'm back to cheer :D Woot! As you all would have known, my school has 2 cheer teams. Sparkz and Cyclonez. I'm an ex-flyer of Cyclonez before I quited last year but this year, I joined back but no, I'm now in Sparkz. Don't freak out! Just so you know, Sparkz was really lousy. In more polite words, they didn't perform so well during Cheer '08. That is because they got a really lousy captain and she didn't make the team practice so hard. This year, with Yana as the captain, she's great and really strict, I must say, Sparkz improved alot and its not just me imagining things, quite an amount of cheer mates from Cyclonez think like that too. And plus, Tsu Ning, Sabr, Ame, Liya, Neesa, Yana, they are all my friends what could be more exciting than practicing cheer with them? If you have your friends and yourself being so passionate and eager about cheer, its just a great great thing :) I have confidence in Sparkz this year and its 3 months to the competition,we're practicing for about 3 to 4 hours, 4 days a week :) And, I love it :) Will try my very very best to be a so-called good cheerleader :)

manda L.